A sweet break up

Dear xxxxxx(Sweetest Heart)

This is my first love letter in my life and hope this will not continue if so I wish that should be with you after your acceptanceJ

There is always a thin line between love and friendship, a best friend could always become a best life partner, I could here the question from you stating what is the need now, I have only one answer, practically speaking which is oxytocin and bad that excretes only when I feel you and emotionally speaking the below

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I started feeling what you feel and you started feeling what I feel, if you try to retrieve what and realize the feel, if not you will name it as mere friendship and hide the reality

You remember xxxxxx ,, when I propose you first, you clarified that I am really in love or I am just kidding, there I understood 2 things 1) you want to be loved and the other 2) childish curious nature to satisfy that someone loving you.

And I love the childish nature of yours and the need of love in you which you obviously hided (This helps in both of our life if we mingle from being single, I love your childish nature and what ever you scold or hit, that I know how to handle and react which will vanish in no moment)

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When I say that again you said You need time, If I put it correctly you typed

“Might be I need time”, and “This is all crap at this age” (and you also added that “you might have clarity but I don’t have)

There I understood your clarity of thought process on understanding your Immediate need through first statement and making you think what you think is crap trough the next

And I love the Knee jerk reaction and telling the truth and hiding your truth behind you through your second which is perfectly normal for a my girl ,, as the former makes me understand what ever you do in our life and the later makes me to kiss you and say “lets forget the mistakes dear by kissing on your forehead”

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When I say that again you told “I cant help it” which almost killed me more than the block you did in fb and whatever and obviously you felt bad

But that’s fine perfectly fine, and I understood you will to go what ever extent to prove your words

And I love the ways you use to hurt the people to the maximum one step over the other which will make me to put things to you in such a way so that you will never feel bad of hurting anybody as I always stand aside you

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Even today .., Please don hide xxxxx by saying besties and manngatti and all.

“That day etho oru frustrationla solliten but I did miss you as a buddy.. veliya evulo ego geththu kaamichaalum ullukulla I am still a fool can’t really have anymore ego so just felt like talking to you .. I should not have talked to you like that on that day … I know I hurt you I am sorry”

You know what I understood ?

And whatever the fight between us we will patch up and go ahead in life

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I have seen many girls but I have not felt.., which is

“What I like with you is what I love with you..,” (Liking someone action at that moment means you just like it and loving is being inspired out of it, and believe me that you are more precious than most precious things in the world for me and forever

Kindly realize what you have talked today xxxxxx,

You could not stay out of me and you could not reveal that to me now or ever

So you again started the conversation and made yourself clear that I am still loving you and again gone and sat in the same tree again by fighting.., blocking and scolding

The above clearly defines that you want to go out from me by blaming me.., so cute.., you could never go out of real love and my love is real

And this is the most clear understanding of me onto you which is when ever there is fight I will fall down and ask apologies to you even the mistake is yours so that you could never find a reason to go out of me, what else you need from a guy whom you are going to love more than this

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There is no harm falling in love xxxxxx it requires no age but perfect mind clarity for anyone individual

Today I could have told that , let us be friends.., Think a moment..,wont it be fake.., wont it be ugly by hiding things.., I am sure that you might have seen friends after proposals but till …, either the boy or the girls fall in relationship with another one and even if so they would not have time to talk to the person whom you loved first.

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Hope you would have read my timelines on the new year for Friends and family.., when you read at the last you can find a word (mom like persons) when I am speaking about my mom.. you are all what I wrote about my friends and you all what I wrote about my relatives and you are my second mom if we get along and I will give the equal respect to you my dear

Please come back if you want to have real, serious & good relationship, else lets meet after being committed with someone (this statement makes me cry and I am crying but life has to go on and I am clear that I could no more be single as intellectual, emotional and sexual orgasm are at it most needed for me)

Say you never come back.., please have this letter and read it after 10 years.., you would have got married to someone ,, you really feel the clarity in Raddy’s mind and the love what he had on you

Say you came back, we will both sit and read it together and by the end when you completed reading .., I would have fallen asleep on your lapJ

If possible come home  (only as my girl friend OK?)

And come with friend a and friend b, so that I will ask my mom to find the girl whom I love

My mom will also find its you.., you know how

Because most moms does not like what their kids likeJ

Want to have a lighter end by the above joke as it should not sound harder for both of us if you did not come back positively

Unnana ippailla earliear school days lerthe romba pidikkum .., engakka appave ottuve .., but I am not ready by that time and you know what I feel about you

“some people don have to have long hair to look beautiful”JJJ

I have lots to say, but not now.., loads to say but not here.., tonnes to say but not to xxxxxxxxx but to xxxxxx Raddy or xxxxxx AjayJ

Read the italics and it the complete you ☺😊😀😊

With loads of Sincere Love(as of now)

Raddy/Ajay

what a man?

What a man ?
                       Steven Paul Jobs, one of my greatest inspirations. A best example for a revolutionist. "I used to walk 7 miles to get food in the hari krishna temple and I loved it". A revolutionist who changed not only the the technology but also people's definition of education. Every parents(ignore exceptions) in this world want their child to be on the safer zone with a graduation and a job of good salary. Even some children came to that conclusion. But steve jobs disturbed the people's heart. Atleast some. But not in India. 90 percentof the parents in India want their child to be on a good college with high marks. This should be changed in India. Coming back to steve jobs , an awesome dyslexic person this world have ever seen. "Stay hungry stay foolish ", one of his favourite quote. Its tougb to imagine a revolution in technology without jobs. Let's just follow our passion and heart . I know, I am not the first one to speak about steve jobs but still I wanted to say something.

My Curiosity of being atheist and being theist

I want to be an atheist . Why I don't know. Nowadays I hear more about atheist achievers. In fact I hear only about atheist winners. I love Steve jobs  and he is an atheist. I was of the view that, if am  an atheist and I could be a achiever. But a curiosity to a movie changed my mind. Me and my friends planned to go to a movie. We had different ideas and different movies. We were 5 guys. Three of us wanted to go to a romance movie and one of my friend was very particular of that movie because of a sexy song. I wanted to go to a movie based on a great mathematician. The last friend wanted to go to a movie, no matter what the movie is. One of my friend in the first three changed his mind and he accompanied me. The other friends teased him that he was a copy cat. A great argument started. But soon I won the argument and we were set. But my curiosity was not satisfied. The movie which I was interested was not played by any theatre in my city. what the ****. The city was ready to take a sexy movie but not a movie about the mathematician who shook the world of math. But still I was  not ready to go o that romance movie. And finally we were to another movie. But still my curiosity is on the movie of the mathematician. I was thinking about that movie for a long time searching for theatres which play this movie. But there were only very few theatres in my state which play this movie. But soon, the feast for my curiosity came threw my school. A person who was closely related to our school was the producer of that film. Our headmaster announced that the school is going to take to the movie. The thing I was wondered about is the day which was planned for the movie was the day before the starting day of my exams . The day before the movie day I asked about Ramanujan(the great mathematician) to my tuition sir who was a great follower and lover of the mathematician. when I asked him, H is curiosity rose to great extent. He explained us about the doubt of Ramanujan. Zero Divided By Zero. He explained Ramanujan's life history. He said about Ramanujan's failure in  higher secondary. And he said about Ramanujan-Hardy number. He said that Ramanujan was damn sure that there were no number less than 1729 which was like 1729. Hardy asked Ramanujan ," how could you say this". Ramanujan said that "Because of the blessings of a goddess". Now I am a theist and I want to be a theist.  But  I realize that being atheist or theist, you cant  achieve things but you can achieve things only if you are yourself. My tuition sir is also like Ramanujan. He is aged 75 and he helped hundreds of students to become masters in math. He has no head weight , no proud , a man of simplicity , like Ramanujan. I have just typed all of this with all my curiosity because the movie day is just two hours away from the time when I post this blog. But still I feel shame of myself as I am not who I am. I am also a copy cat. I copy atheists, theists and many more. But soon I will be who I am.

NAMO NAMO; a very powerful mantra

India chants NAMO NAMO. A very powerful mantra attracted a billion people. Also, this mantra pushed some people to a terrified state. Narendra Modi, the present prime minister of the Indian subcontinent attracted many people because of his capacity of being leader and his good works in Gujarat. He has introduced some significant steps which gave him a very good start.  We can’t judge him with his start. He has experienced some poverty on his olden days. So, he knows the pain of the poor.  In movies when a poor comes to a position, he will be brainwashed by some bad people. But in reality, we don’t know what will happen. But I think, he will be the best prime minister ever. He is brave enough to fight the oppressors.  But he will be the best compared to the accidental prime minister and others.

the man and his great boxer

I saw a man with his great boxer. He trained his boxer very well. The boxer was looking good, very good. The man was in his 50s with a grey moustache and beard. He was dressed in a navy blue t shirt with grey horizontal stripes on it. His pant was in a grey color which was a normal fit. The boxer was 19-20 years old. But still he looked like 5-10 years old.  When I crossed the man and his boxer, I was wondered and stared at the boxer. Actually I was travelling with my father. The reason for my wonder is the boxer bike was looking very tidy and young compared to our bike. The boxer CD110 was a very old model and we had a new hero motocorp (2014 model) .  And the boxer is an outdated model. So there is no chance of buying one. It had a weak break system which I noted when he paused at the signal. Obviously he has not been for a service. But still he was looking very young. I was so jealous on the man and his boxer. It was very good looking compared to our new bike. What maintenance!!!

my english and womenly nature of men

It is well known that, English is an unstable language. I am also unstable in English. I have a very poor English .I thought I have a good English till the day when my brother started to correct me. He wanted to say me some corrections about my blog. But I distracted him like a mad maid .i just wanted to win the argument with him. He was tensed .Loads and loads of anger. Then he called me through phone. He was speaking in a very low tone. It was not as usual. He said I should only try to gain my goal (goal of comment for my page). Not any other thing. I felt like accused surrounded by millions of cops. He gave a bunch of advice. But still my mind was so adamant. It said me(at that moment) I still have a very good in English. Then my worst part of life started. He started to take me English tuition. I don’t even go to tuition for core subjects. He gave me a lecture through Facebook. Thereafter he taught me articles, tags and many other things which I don’t even listen in my school. Yes, I took English class as a leisure one. But I got a lot for that through a social site. That moment I cursed Zuckerberg for his rubbish site. Thereafter my brain came to a settlement.” I don’t know English”. Yes I don’t know anything. Then I went ahead to the tuition. He was so strict. He didn’t allow me even to type. Again I cursed Zuckerberg for his knowledge of designing Facebook to indicate whether the persons are typing. He said “wait” don (don’t {said by him}) type. Then I think I developed a bit (I feel). He wants me to be an empty cup. But I distracted him with stupid proverbs. Then we got settled. The tuition lasted an hour. Then I quit with a fear. I feared whether he took anything wrong on my quitting proposal of bye. I asked about the angriness. He said he wasn’t with a smiling meep (a sort of smiley). Then I quit. He wants me to speak good English. I should have not distracted him. Like a messing maid.

amazinggg!!!!

This is really amazing.I got my first like in facebook from the person who said to open a blog.Ofcores still I
am kiddish.But still i couldn't control my crazy kid sense .I hope it will take sometime for me to rest out of this kid sense.