I want to be an atheist . Why I don't know. Nowadays I hear more about atheist achievers. In fact I hear only about atheist winners. I love Steve jobs and he is an atheist. I was of the view that, if am an atheist and I could be a achiever. But a curiosity to a movie changed my mind. Me and my friends planned to go to a movie. We had different ideas and different movies. We were 5 guys. Three of us wanted to go to a romance movie and one of my friend was very particular of that movie because of a sexy song. I wanted to go to a movie based on a great mathematician. The last friend wanted to go to a movie, no matter what the movie is. One of my friend in the first three changed his mind and he accompanied me. The other friends teased him that he was a copy cat. A great argument started. But soon I won the argument and we were set. But my curiosity was not satisfied. The movie which I was interested was not played by any theatre in my city. what the ****. The city was ready to take a sexy movie but not a movie about the mathematician who shook the world of math. But still I was not ready to go o that romance movie. And finally we were to another movie. But still my curiosity is on the movie of the mathematician. I was thinking about that movie for a long time searching for theatres which play this movie. But there were only very few theatres in my state which play this movie. But soon, the feast for my curiosity came threw my school. A person who was closely related to our school was the producer of that film. Our headmaster announced that the school is going to take to the movie. The thing I was wondered about is the day which was planned for the movie was the day before the starting day of my exams . The day before the movie day I asked about Ramanujan(the great mathematician) to my tuition sir who was a great follower and lover of the mathematician. when I asked him, H is curiosity rose to great extent. He explained us about the doubt of Ramanujan. Zero Divided By Zero. He explained Ramanujan's life history. He said about Ramanujan's failure in higher secondary. And he said about Ramanujan-Hardy number. He said that Ramanujan was damn sure that there were no number less than 1729 which was like 1729. Hardy asked Ramanujan ," how could you say this". Ramanujan said that "Because of the blessings of a goddess". Now I am a theist and I want to be a theist. But I realize that being atheist or theist, you cant achieve things but you can achieve things only if you are yourself. My tuition sir is also like Ramanujan. He is aged 75 and he helped hundreds of students to become masters in math. He has no head weight , no proud , a man of simplicity , like Ramanujan. I have just typed all of this with all my curiosity because the movie day is just two hours away from the time when I post this blog. But still I feel shame of myself as I am not who I am. I am also a copy cat. I copy atheists, theists and many more. But soon I will be who I am.
