Saturday 10 January 2015

A sweet break up


Dear xxxxxx(Sweetest Heart)

This is my first love letter in my life and hope this will not continue if so I wish that should be with you after your acceptanceJ

There is always a thin line between love and friendship, a best friend could always become a best life partner, I could here the question from you stating what is the need now, I have only one answer, practically speaking which is oxytocin and bad that excretes only when I feel you and emotionally speaking the below

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I started feeling what you feel and you started feeling what I feel, if you try to retrieve what and realize the feel, if not you will name it as mere friendship and hide the reality

You remember xxxxxx ,, when I propose you first, you clarified that I am really in love or I am just kidding, there I understood 2 things 1) you want to be loved and the other 2) childish curious nature to satisfy that someone loving you.

And I love the childish nature of yours and the need of love in you which you obviously hided (This helps in both of our life if we mingle from being single, I love your childish nature and what ever you scold or hit, that I know how to handle and react which will vanish in no moment)

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When I say that again you said You need time, If I put it correctly you typed

“Might be I need time”, and “This is all crap at this age” (and you also added that “you might have clarity but I don’t have)

There I understood your clarity of thought process on understanding your Immediate need through first statement and making you think what you think is crap trough the next

And I love the Knee jerk reaction and telling the truth and hiding your truth behind you through your second which is perfectly normal for a my girl ,, as the former makes me understand what ever you do in our life and the later makes me to kiss you and say “lets forget the mistakes dear by kissing on your forehead”

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When I say that again you told “I cant help it” which almost killed me more than the block you did in fb and whatever and obviously you felt bad

But that’s fine perfectly fine, and I understood you will to go what ever extent to prove your words

And I love the ways you use to hurt the people to the maximum one step over the other which will make me to put things to you in such a way so that you will never feel bad of hurting anybody as I always stand aside you

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Even today .., Please don hide xxxxx by saying besties and manngatti and all.

“That day etho oru frustrationla solliten but I did miss you as a buddy.. veliya evulo ego geththu kaamichaalum ullukulla I am still a fool can’t really have anymore ego so just felt like talking to you .. I should not have talked to you like that on that day … I know I hurt you I am sorry”

You know what I understood ?

And whatever the fight between us we will patch up and go ahead in life


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I have seen many girls but I have not felt.., which is

“What I like with you is what I love with you..,” (Liking someone action at that moment means you just like it and loving is being inspired out of it, and believe me that you are more precious than most precious things in the world for me and forever

Kindly realize what you have talked today xxxxxx,

You could not stay out of me and you could not reveal that to me now or ever

So you again started the conversation and made yourself clear that I am still loving you and again gone and sat in the same tree again by fighting.., blocking and scolding

The above clearly defines that you want to go out from me by blaming me.., so cute.., you could never go out of real love and my love is real

And this is the most clear understanding of me onto you which is when ever there is fight I will fall down and ask apologies to you even the mistake is yours so that you could never find a reason to go out of me, what else you need from a guy whom you are going to love more than this


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There is no harm falling in love xxxxxx it requires no age but perfect mind clarity for anyone individual

Today I could have told that , let us be friends.., Think a moment..,wont it be fake.., wont it be ugly by hiding things.., I am sure that you might have seen friends after proposals but till …, either the boy or the girls fall in relationship with another one and even if so they would not have time to talk to the person whom you loved first.

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Hope you would have read my timelines on the new year for Friends and family.., when you read at the last you can find a word (mom like persons) when I am speaking about my mom.. you are all what I wrote about my friends and you all what I wrote about my relatives and you are my second mom if we get along and I will give the equal respect to you my dear

Please come back if you want to have real, serious & good relationship, else lets meet after being committed with someone (this statement makes me cry and I am crying but life has to go on and I am clear that I could no more be single as intellectual, emotional and sexual orgasm are at it most needed for me)

Say you never come back.., please have this letter and read it after 10 years.., you would have got married to someone ,, you really feel the clarity in Raddy’s mind and the love what he had on you

Say you came back, we will both sit and read it together and by the end when you completed reading .., I would have fallen asleep on your lapJ

If possible come home  (only as my girl friend OK?)

And come with friend a and friend b, so that I will ask my mom to find the girl whom I love

My mom will also find its you.., you know how

Because most moms does not like what their kids likeJ

Want to have a lighter end by the above joke as it should not sound harder for both of us if you did not come back positively

Unnana ippailla earliear school days lerthe romba pidikkum .., engakka appave ottuve .., but I am not ready by that time and you know what I feel about you

“some people don have to have long hair to look beautiful”JJJ

I have lots to say, but not now.., loads to say but not here.., tonnes to say but not to xxxxxxxxx but to xxxxxx Raddy or xxxxxx AjayJ

Read the italics and it the complete you ☺😊😀😊

With loads of Sincere Love(as of now)

Raddy/Ajay